I'm an Aunt Again

My Brother in Law and his wife just welcomed their first child into the world. He's a little cutie, born on January 4. Just bragging. :)

Taking things seriously

Well, I am sick and tired of my family not taking my businesses seriously. It probably doesn't help that, up until the husband (HHBG) lost his job, I wasnt really taking things seriously. BUT my Jewelry business is something I am passionate about, and I AM taking it seriously this year.

Check it out:

CoquiAinjelfire

Hopefully, others will see how serious I am about it. I have a separate blog talkign about my business and the things I am making. I see this as a big step for me to making this a real business and livelihood.

This Sucks

We are possibly going to move this year, with the economy being so awesome, and Dh not I working. He's lookin ginto going back for his Ph.D., and I am just along for the ride. If he gets accepted and gets the financial aid we would need, we'll move. If he gets a job outside of the NYC area, we'll move. I am waiting to get a job until we figure out what is going on with him, since right now, having not worked in over 6 years, I would be looking at entry level or retail. I'm not thrilled with our situation, but I'll live.

The thing that is KILLING ME is, if/when we move, I cannot take my fabric. I know this is a petty concern, but it is upsetting. So, I have "manned up" (Womanned up?), and listed my fabric and sewing supplies on craigslist.

I have gotten a good response, and I know I have way mre fabric than ten people could use int heir lifetimes, but that doesn't mean I enjoy selling my fabric at a huge loss. I love my fabric, and it is just traipsing out of my house for practically no money.

I know this is my own doing. I could charge more. I could do a lot of things, but I do need to pare down. That being said, it is depressing and disheartening. I am doing what needs to be done, but not enjoying it at all. I don't want to do this anymore, but I need to get down to a reasonable amount of fabric, and it's easy to say I have ten times what ANYONE could EVER consider reasonable.

well, I have more people coming in about an hour, so I guess I should go eat something and try to straighten up down there after the people who just left. Bleh.

Ok, am I the only person in the world who thinks someone else tucking your tag in is RUDE and an inconsiderate?

I HATE when people do this, whether they be strangers or friends. I especially hate when strangers do it. Immediately, the tag itches and bothers me, as they ALWAYS scrape it against my skin to tuck it in.

I think it is very rude to touch someone to do something like tucking in a tag, or (along the same lines) removing a thread or hair or fuzz from their clothing. I feel like it is an invasion into my personal space,a nd it makes me jump to be touched without warning or permission. I don't care if it IS bothering you. get over it and look away. it's on ME. Are you such an OCD control freak you can't stand a hair or thing out of place, even on someone else??

it's one thing to ask someone if they would mind you doing so, or to inform someone that they have a tag showing, but it's entirely another to touch them with no warning and without permission.

I nearly slapped a lady in the store today. She grabbed the back of the frigging neck of my shirt to stop me so she could tuck in my tag! I rounded on her ready to punch her, I swear. Her excuse: "it was really bothering me, adn I couldn't let you walk around like that" Why not? it wasn't bothering ME until you took it upon yourself to grab me and scrape my neck tucking it in.
People don't zip the open flies of other people....why is it ok to tuck in tags??
OK, rant over.

In a Funk

My DH has not had any work for a few weeks. We had some money put aside, and he got a pretty good severance package, so we decided that we could spend the summer with him focusing on writing a book and me taking care of the kids. Come September, though at least one of us needs to get a job.

This is fine.

I'm kind of stressed out about what kind of job a woman who has never HAD a job for more than about 9 months at a pop can get. yes, I have a bachelor's degree, but it's in something that is worthless as far as job-getting skills are concerned, because the degree is 9 years out of date at this point.

However, the biggest thing causing me problems right now is my complete and utter lack of motivation. I have two sewing businesses. I have one non-time sensitive order, and a gift that need to be made, but I just cannot seem to get my act together. First it was because I was putting all of the stuff away in the basement, now it's my back is out.....what's next?? I feel like a lazy schlub.

Thursday is my kids' last day of school. After that, I am on full-time mommy alert, and I haven't gotten the things I need to do done. I was talking about making extra money this summer with my sewing, and I have done nothing. What's wrong with me??

I need to figure something out. Lazy-ass just doesn't suit me. Sewing is usually my therapy. Maybe it would give me some clarity as far as this job thing is concerned....maybe I'm purposely avoiding it?? I just don't know.

One thing I did think of today:

When I start getting overwhelmed, I tend to disengage.....I have been disengaged for weeks now, and whenever I try to get back into the swing, it's just too much. I know it's better to just deal with things, but I am overly caught up in the what-if's and What-are-we-going-to-do?'s when I sew is usually when I deal with things, but I have been not sewing because I jsut start to freak out.

Not a good mind set. I suck.

Life.....

It;s been three weeks since DH's last day at his former job. He's been home writing a book. I am supportive of this, but it kind of has thrown off my routine. I am so far behind on my work and chores, it is ridiculous....add that to the fact that EURO 2008 has been goig on for the last few weeks, and my production level has been nil.

I need to get back to my work and to getting the house out of the sty state it has devolved to.

But hey, my sewing area is looking good. I'm jsut about ready to stat up sewing heavy again adn makign some money! woohoo!

The Anonymity of the Internet

So, a few internet boards that I participate in have had some major blow ups, hurt feelings, and mass exoduses recently. It is the time of year, or is this just something that happens every once in a while??

What I do know is, so manuy people seem to forget that many people on these boards are real people. Real people with different lives, opinions, and view points than theirs. Hurtful or nasty posts are aimed at another person. The nasty things you send to someone over email or internet mediums, is that something that you would say to someone in person?? Beofre you hit send, think about how you would react to things like this being said about you. Would you feel ashamed if it came out publicly that YOU were the one who said something like this....if your family was told?

I am a firm believer in trying my best to not say anything to others that would come back to haunt me. I am NOT going to pretend that I am great at this I screw up just as much as, if not more than, the average person, but with the internet medium, I have an automatic "stop and think about this" button titled "SEND". I try to NEVER hit the send button before I re-read what it is I have just written and feel strongly that what I have said is not something I am going ot be ashamed of. Well, at least not ashamed of the content....I never can seem to remember to proofread for typos.....

I basically left a board about a year ago over this, and over things not even aimed at me (This time). I am on the verge of walking away from another board over this, and it hurts. I hate that people feel that they can only get along when the opther people agree with THEIR opinions/viewpoints, and feel it is their right, being "in the right" to get nasty when people disagree. It sucks.

Maybe I'm being passive agressive talking about this on my blog. I just have seen this happen over and over again on so many different web sites. It sucks.