Ok, am I the only person in the world who thinks someone else tucking your tag in is RUDE and an inconsiderate?

I HATE when people do this, whether they be strangers or friends. I especially hate when strangers do it. Immediately, the tag itches and bothers me, as they ALWAYS scrape it against my skin to tuck it in.

I think it is very rude to touch someone to do something like tucking in a tag, or (along the same lines) removing a thread or hair or fuzz from their clothing. I feel like it is an invasion into my personal space,a nd it makes me jump to be touched without warning or permission. I don't care if it IS bothering you. get over it and look away. it's on ME. Are you such an OCD control freak you can't stand a hair or thing out of place, even on someone else??

it's one thing to ask someone if they would mind you doing so, or to inform someone that they have a tag showing, but it's entirely another to touch them with no warning and without permission.

I nearly slapped a lady in the store today. She grabbed the back of the frigging neck of my shirt to stop me so she could tuck in my tag! I rounded on her ready to punch her, I swear. Her excuse: "it was really bothering me, adn I couldn't let you walk around like that" Why not? it wasn't bothering ME until you took it upon yourself to grab me and scrape my neck tucking it in.
People don't zip the open flies of other people....why is it ok to tuck in tags??
OK, rant over.

In a Funk

My DH has not had any work for a few weeks. We had some money put aside, and he got a pretty good severance package, so we decided that we could spend the summer with him focusing on writing a book and me taking care of the kids. Come September, though at least one of us needs to get a job.

This is fine.

I'm kind of stressed out about what kind of job a woman who has never HAD a job for more than about 9 months at a pop can get. yes, I have a bachelor's degree, but it's in something that is worthless as far as job-getting skills are concerned, because the degree is 9 years out of date at this point.

However, the biggest thing causing me problems right now is my complete and utter lack of motivation. I have two sewing businesses. I have one non-time sensitive order, and a gift that need to be made, but I just cannot seem to get my act together. First it was because I was putting all of the stuff away in the basement, now it's my back is out.....what's next?? I feel like a lazy schlub.

Thursday is my kids' last day of school. After that, I am on full-time mommy alert, and I haven't gotten the things I need to do done. I was talking about making extra money this summer with my sewing, and I have done nothing. What's wrong with me??

I need to figure something out. Lazy-ass just doesn't suit me. Sewing is usually my therapy. Maybe it would give me some clarity as far as this job thing is concerned....maybe I'm purposely avoiding it?? I just don't know.

One thing I did think of today:

When I start getting overwhelmed, I tend to disengage.....I have been disengaged for weeks now, and whenever I try to get back into the swing, it's just too much. I know it's better to just deal with things, but I am overly caught up in the what-if's and What-are-we-going-to-do?'s when I sew is usually when I deal with things, but I have been not sewing because I jsut start to freak out.

Not a good mind set. I suck.

Life.....

It;s been three weeks since DH's last day at his former job. He's been home writing a book. I am supportive of this, but it kind of has thrown off my routine. I am so far behind on my work and chores, it is ridiculous....add that to the fact that EURO 2008 has been goig on for the last few weeks, and my production level has been nil.

I need to get back to my work and to getting the house out of the sty state it has devolved to.

But hey, my sewing area is looking good. I'm jsut about ready to stat up sewing heavy again adn makign some money! woohoo!

The Anonymity of the Internet

So, a few internet boards that I participate in have had some major blow ups, hurt feelings, and mass exoduses recently. It is the time of year, or is this just something that happens every once in a while??

What I do know is, so manuy people seem to forget that many people on these boards are real people. Real people with different lives, opinions, and view points than theirs. Hurtful or nasty posts are aimed at another person. The nasty things you send to someone over email or internet mediums, is that something that you would say to someone in person?? Beofre you hit send, think about how you would react to things like this being said about you. Would you feel ashamed if it came out publicly that YOU were the one who said something like this....if your family was told?

I am a firm believer in trying my best to not say anything to others that would come back to haunt me. I am NOT going to pretend that I am great at this I screw up just as much as, if not more than, the average person, but with the internet medium, I have an automatic "stop and think about this" button titled "SEND". I try to NEVER hit the send button before I re-read what it is I have just written and feel strongly that what I have said is not something I am going ot be ashamed of. Well, at least not ashamed of the content....I never can seem to remember to proofread for typos.....

I basically left a board about a year ago over this, and over things not even aimed at me (This time). I am on the verge of walking away from another board over this, and it hurts. I hate that people feel that they can only get along when the opther people agree with THEIR opinions/viewpoints, and feel it is their right, being "in the right" to get nasty when people disagree. It sucks.

Maybe I'm being passive agressive talking about this on my blog. I just have seen this happen over and over again on so many different web sites. It sucks.

Stupidity in the Era of Entitlement

So, the stupidest protest just went on in NYC. Yes, the idiots who had the nerve to protest in the lobby of Bear Stearns over the Fed's "bail out" of the bank, while nothing was done for the "poor homeowners" who are facing foreclosure. Here's a link to a news story:

http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20080326/bs_nm/bearstearns_protest_dc;_ylt=Ah66wLgx5yI..HTCdft6qcys0NUE

Now, explain to me how these two things are related??

The fed is offering a heavily collateralized loan to help a major bank from going into bankruptcy. This is a bank that was taken down by rumors and a run. The Fed's guarantee is not helping the employees of Bear (trust me, I know, Dh works for Bear). All the guarantee did was make it more likely that JPMorgan Chase would take over and help the investors (many of whom are taxpayers, and fund holders) retain their money-making investments. Because when a bank goes down, all of the money held by the bank goes WITH IT. Bear had approximately $85 a share in assets before the liquidity problem (caused by rumors and media) happened. JPMorgan is going to go down in history as getting a steal of a deal, even at $10 a share. Watch.

Meanwhile, the Mortgage crisis is, I'm sorry, mostly the doing of the mortgage holders. Who takes on a mortgage they can't afford?? Ok, they could afford it in the beginning, but READ THE FINE PRINT. How hard is that, really?? We're talking mainly about people unable to pay for their mortgages who still have the same family incomes they had when they bought the homes. Yes,t here are pockets where people lost their jobs, but that is always going to happen. This crisis is people who didn't bother to actually READ their mortgage contracts, then went crying to the government when they started having problems paying their debts. I have very little sympathy for the people who took on more house than they could afford. I don't see why I, as a responsible taxpayer, should help out these people who weren't so responsible. Does that make me cold? Probably. But since when should our housing be socialist? Where is the line for fiscal responsibility?

I still love that it's the lender's faults that people can't pay anymore. I agree many people got preyed on, but it was their gullibility and greed that got preyed upon, really. Debt is not a good thing. Why take on more than you an handle??

So, in my opinion:

Bear Protesters = Morons.

Bitter person

It has been pointed out to me by someone whose opinion I care about that I am a bitter person....

In many ways, this person is absolutely correct. In others, not.

I am bitter about my family, and many things that happened when I was growing up. And how they treat me now.

I am bitter about how I was treated by some of my former friends...especially the ones who felt that taking sides was necessary....and the ones who turned their backs on me the instant they could. And especially the one who turned his back on me the instant I got married.

I am bitter about being shunned for a scholarship I planned much of my collegiate career for, because the professor in charge of the application process thought my DEGREE wasn't appropriate.

I'm bitter about the people in groups who shun the people who don't agree with them, then preach about how they are better people who are somehow more enlightened...they preach about others blindness, yet are oblivious to their own intolerance.

And I'm bitter about other relatively minor things.

Yet I'm NOT bitter about so much I could be. This, by the way, is why my bitterness was
pointed out. Why can I let some things go and not others? I have NO IDEA.

But, yes. I am a bitter person. It's not something I am necessarily proud of, but there it is.

Non-Marbled nails

Last night, HHBG and I went out to dinner for my 31st birthday. I had gotten my nails done for this, and for some reason I decided to get a plain old french manicure. It's nice, but BORING. I never realised how much joy having pretty-yet-kind-of-crazy nails gives me.

I am going to get a color change next week, I think. Maybe yellow with purple pulled-stripes.